I am filled with passion tonight. So much love, gratitude and hope. Don’t get me wrong, there’s fear too. But so much fire.

For awhile in my life, I was longing for something real. For life to feel real. To not feel the same mundane patterns and routines I knew. To see and know more than the same fake personalities of people around me.

I had a very intense nightmare the other night, one of the scariest I've experienced in a long time. Now, I'll tell you it in a bit, but the next day, sometime in the afternoon, I was hit with such a grief. A grief of all the men being gone. In this grief, I realized my dream was much more connected to my reality than I thought.

I am not a fan of the online dating world, however, I do believe love finds people in mysterious ways that are not bound to rules or opinions. Love is not bound by the mind, love is of the heart, and the heart does not judge. I believe that there is true love that exists in every single one of our hearts. It is that feeling of a home, of a cozy day, of the sun, of comfort, of support, of passion, of bliss, excitement, peace, grief.

Based deep on my instinct and experiences with health, the root of all disease is an underlying, subconscious urge to die. Therefore, then the "cure" to all disease is life force, or passion. Life force is a desire to live. Now, don't get that confused with wanting to survive out of a fear of death, because they are very different. 

This is such a crucial question to look into for yourself. Are you motivated by the fear of death (suffering), or the desire to live? And by fear of death, I mean every fear, because the fear of death at its root is the fear of suffering, and all fear is such. And that is only if you believe or fear deep down that death = suffering. To believe that is also to believe that life = suffering. Ok, anyways, it is such a crucial question because everything and anything that is making you feel stuck in your life, is some sort of fear. And it can be such a perpetuating cycle. You fear something bad happening, so it makes you want the opposite, and then you fight with such urgency to escape what you fear will happen. This, my friend, is a never ending cycle. You'll never get what you are looking for, because, it is really as simple as what you are looking for is found in giving up this fear completely and just letting go. 

In other words, this is about how energy manifests itself into the physical world. This is a process similar to the way we communicate through language. We begin with a desire to speak, to express, something we feel moving inside and so we speak it out, we translate it. And so this is the process of manifestation, of creation, of birth. Everything in this realm, in the physical world, in the world of time, begins as energy.

Wow, what a topic. What seems so simple can actually be a whirlwind of a journey. Facing reality is not just about facing merely the visible things of our lives, but is instead about facing it all. The visible and the invisible. The physical aspect of our life along with the truth we feel inside our hearts with our life.

Identity. Such a potent topic. I heard this quote once that "every crisis in life is an identity crisis" and I immediately understood. Every crisis I have ever faced has surely been an identity crisis, and I can say this now after spending some years really rooting into the truth of who I am. Anyways, here I will discuss how every crisis we could ever face comes from not knowing or not feeling deeply connected with who we are at our core.

This is an article I have been waiting to write for some time, and now I am ready. 

As I am leaving Europe today, departing from Crete in Greece, I reflect. Oh how much love there is around me, I could cry. I rejoice.

Yarrow is a plant that came to me through love, and has shown me nothing but love. In fact, in my life, yarrow has been the embodiment of love in many different ways that I want to share here.