Energy Channels

Each human is a container and is the flow of energy. On the outside is the human body and brain, which is connected to the energy or emotional body, or also called the energy field, which is connected to the soul, which is a seed of god, or the universe, or the one whole spirit of life. All parts of us tether to one another down to our soul, which is tethered to the divine as a baby in the womb is tethered to their mother. Therefore, we are tethered to the divine as a baby in the womb is tethered to their mother.

So, we are always receiving and are an ever-flowing source of spirit / life energy. How epic, am I right?

This energy speaks to us through our instinct. You may ask, "how do I know what instinct is?" or "How do I separate my instinct from what I THINK I need to do?"

And these are very valid questions. Nowadays with all the authorities and rules and what not, our instincts are all mixed up. Like a compass gets all messed up in the presence of a strong electromagnetic field. 

We can think of our instinct like a compass. Naturally, it is attuned to our own electromagnetic field, or energy field, pointing our bodies in the direction our soul wants to go just fine. However, in the interaction of other strong electromagnetic (energy) fields, the compass gets all wishy washy and movin all over the place without a direct line of focus. 

That is what happens to our instinct when we open ourselves, or give, any energy field (something / someone) authority over our direction. Our instincts go haywire. 

In an equal exchange of energy, in a healthy connection, we remain ourselves. We don't lose ourselves or focus or identity. We are never meant to. We evolve and change, but our core foundation remains. 

It is a scary thing for a human being - being lost in the direction / focus / identity of one's life. So scary that, a lot of the times, it feels safer to submit the trust in someone / something who acts as though they have a solid foundation, in order to give yourself some ground. 

Oh the cycle of authorities. 

Now I can attest to this in my life, maybe a little too extremely. I have always searched frantically and submitted to authority figures, whether it be my teachers, boyfriends, best friends, diets, religions, you name it. Always with such intensity, and always fully giving in. 

This led me to some pretty wild situations, giving up all of my own instinct for the "safety" I believed other people and things could provide. This, combined with need to prove to these "authorities" that I was good in order to feel accepted, has caused extreme stress in my life. 

Once I began setting my focus to my own instinct, this whole frantic search for safety and ground began to crumble. I began setting my feet on my own ground, trusting myself. 

When you give power to something or someone over your own instinct, you are giving away your power. You are creating a channel of energy to this thing or person, or, in even better terms, entity, because the energy of a certain idea, like a diet or religion, is an energy field that is created through a person's or group's belief in it. 

In the power games we see nowadays, this energy channel is only one of draining. Only one of taking, and no receive. A healthy channel is one that is open on both ends. The giver and receiver are one in the same. However, in power games, there is only one giver and one receiver. 

And you just know when you are involved in a power game. You just know because you feel drained. A true, healthy interaction should leave you feeling fulfilled, replenished. 

And I know this is not easy, as a lot of us have grown up being drained. But slowly, we can take back our own power, and open energy channels on our own terms, when we truly feel trust.

We are epic beings on an epic home. The possibilities are endless. We are not what people have told us we are. We are not what our mind has told us we are. We are not restricted to that box. We are what we love. We are what burns are soul with passion. We are whatever we want to be at any given moment.

And this speaks to us through instinct. Trusting instinct is trusting how you feel. Trusting what you want, what you desire, what feels good to you. Honoring how you feel rather than forcing yourself to be how you think you should. 

This allows you to grow your roots into the fertile soil of your own soul. 

I also want to talk about how it can be confusing as some things we want we know are actually not good for us. Everyone's journey is different with this, but it is important to stay curious, stay open, and, remember that change will not kill you. Do what you want, be gentle with yourself, and move along with ease. What are you afraid of? 

Energy channels stay open through belief. Believing someone or an idea over one's own instinct. Believing things like you are not enough, or you are bad, or that you aren't loveable. Believing that you need to do or act or be a certain way in order to be good / loved / loveable ect. These sorts of things cage the soul my friends.

Alright, here's an example. 

So, when I was younger, I was in a very controlling and mentally abusive relationship. I felt a lot of shame for letting someone change me the way that he did, and I carried that with me even after we broke up, fearing myself for ever letting myself get there in the first place. I continued to blame myself in order to prevent ever becoming that girl again. Shaming her, running from her, still making her feel like she's not good enough, like there is something wrong with her. 

For some time, I thought this was good. I thought it was keeping me from ever going back there.

This is where I was wrong.

What I really needed was to let that girl free. Let it all go. No more running. No more blaming. Only forgiveness and love. That is all that girl ever needed. That is why she accepted such little love in the first place... because the little "love" was enough for all of the suffering. Or so she felt. 

But now we know that is not true. Now we know that the "love" we felt from him was just a projection of the love we wanted, which comes from US. From ME. 

Anyways, in order to let all of this go... the shame, the fear, the heartbreak... I had to stop blaming myself and begin forgiving. 

Oh how scary. Because it was the anger towards myself that I held on to in order to "keep me in line".

And oh how wrong that is. 

So with this forgiveness, I am letting go of the energy channel to this boy, to this abuse. 

I kept the energy channel open to all of this through the belief that I was not good enough then. And this kept me running from that version of myself, afraid to ever "not be good enough" again. 

Instead, I had to let it all go, and let the future unfold from a foundation of possibility, openness, love, rather than a future built off of avoiding becoming the past.

Truth is, we can never become our past. Ever. Whether it is a good past or bad, we can never go back. Life is constantly changing and unfolding, and we can trust in its divine perfection, letting go of the control. Letting go of a box we may find ourselves confined to. 

Sending you all my love, and the permission to forgive yourself for anything you may blame yourself for. 

I always see the quote that goes something like, "you cannot shame yourself into change, only love yourself through evolution". Be gentle with yourself ♡